無話可說

昨天是我的表哥的婚禮喜宴. 原本是我和你一同出席...但只有我一個人出席. 因為我知道你不想參加. 而且, 出去了一整天. 你都沒睡到.

親戚門每個都問我為什麼你沒來, 我只好騙他們說你生病.

我處處為你著想, 可是你卻沒顧慮到我的感受. 我還以為你會乘這機會休息,可是你卻做了一件寧我十分生氣又失望的事.

我真的不知道該說什麼. 明明知道我不喜歡,你還是和她聯絡.

Disappointed & Sad

I'm so disappointed and sad today...

In e first place, I shd nt have went out with you, your bro and friends when i can feel that you actually don't wish to bring me along. How stupid am I, not realising that u actually found yrself new companies, yr bro and friends and that u no longer need my company. I shd have realise that when many times I wanna go with u, u rejected me, and only ask yr bro or his friends to tag along.

When i told u i wanna spend more time with u, cos after i give birth till now, we hardly go out together or spend time together, but u told me you dun intend to bring me along cos dun knw what i can do when u prawning. After hearing, I'm so sad but I act as if nothing had happen...

After supper, u wanted me to go home first, instead of bring me along with u all. What can I say... but OK... While driving on the way, I thought u will change yr mind and bring me along, but u asked me whether I want to go home or follow you. Of course, I've no choice but go home, cos i dun wanna make u unhappy. If u wanted to bring me along, u will not had asked me to go home in the first place.

Everyday, we are beside each other, but the number of conversation we had are countable... I always wanted to chat with u but... u r always on the pc... so i don't wanna disturb or irritate u... Is this so-called marriage life.

Maybe like what u used to say... I'm too dependent and sticky on you.. I shd depend more on myself.. isn't it funny? U r just beside me, and I have to send u an email in order to communicate with u.

Confinement Days are BORING!

Confinement days are really boring!

Firstly, everyday have to eat confinement food...

Secondly, cannot shower with clear water... Have to shower with herbs or ginger water...

Thirdly, no matter how hot, nv let the fan blow at you... shower like never shower...

Fourthly, cannot GO OUT! Everyday have to stay at home. Cannot even step out of the house... Sometimes I dun even know what to do at home. Surf net surf till nothing to surf, play games also play till bored... sigh...

Everytime see my husband go out, I feel so sad and sian... We used to always go out too, and hardly stayed home... NOW... ask me whole day and for one whole month cannot go out... I feel like I'm dying soon...

The Birth of Baby Genevieve

On the 22ND May 2008, Baby Genevieve is born. This cute little princess of Brandon & Jess, and who I've been carrying for 9 months in my womb, is finally out to explore the world by herself.


Admitted to the hospital on night of Wednesday, 21st May 2008. When my husband fetched me to the hospital, it's already 9pm. Upon reaching the hospital, the nurse directed me to the labour ward immediately, and my husband will have to settle with all the admission paper work. After that, then he can come to keep me accompany in the labour ward.

At ard 9 plus, the nurse inserted a tablet into me, which is known as induction.

At 0400hrs, my water bag burst. Water starts to flow out, and it's warm. The water will just keep on flowing out until the baby is born.

0430hrs, contraction started. The pain was getting from bad to worse... and it's really unbearable. I endured for the 6 hrs, and until the nurse told me that my delivery won't be so soon, then i finally gave up and opt for epidural.

Fortunately, I've my husband beside me to give me support though he's tired and can't do much for the pain I'm experiencing.

Finally, after another 5 hrs, Baby Genevieve is out. For that moment, I really feel relieve in my womb, not so heavy. I can see my husband's tears in his eyes, as he saw the pain I'd and giving out all my strength to push the baby out.

The delivery process is really a memorable and unforgettable one.

I need some PEACE pls!

I going crazy soon!

I seriously need some PEACE, and not PISS!

After a day of work, all I hope is Peace, Quiet, & Relax! The noise & voice surrounding me is driving me crazy! I'm enduring it and keeping quiet, doesn't mean that ___ can test my patience!

Back 4 an Update!

It's quite awhile since i last update my blog, due to my bf internet service got 'chopped' off, and I seldom went back to my home.
Well, something which i didn't expect it to happen, is happening on me! Some of u out there knw abt it, but some dunno yet. For those who dunno abt anything, forgive me for nt telling u all, as I've my own reason.
Anyway, it's something which I'm quite happy abt and looking forward to for the time to ripe but at the same time, it's also something which I'm vex about..
Thanks for those who has been with me, chatting with me. Esp. Superman, Teacher-to-be, my Tu Di, Mei Nan Zi, Xin and e most important person in my life, my Anata. He's being enduring my attitude, temper and doing things for me even though he's so damn tired. My dear frens, forgive me if I get mood swing or attitude at u all. I'm trying to ctrl my moods but sometimes it's beyond my ctrl. Hope u all cn understand.
I love you guys! Muack! Cos u all really cn make me laugh till my jaw nearly drop but nt yet drop! hahaha!

I'm nt just shwing my temper for the sake of showing it!

Everytime I come back home there's bound to have some ppl who makes me angry. What the fuck?! Can't u all just let me have some peace doing my own things! Just because of wanting to mop the floor, u asked me to shift into the room, with the damn table and laptop. After that, u say u wanted to watch tv in the room, ask me to carry the table n laptop out again! U think it's funny shifting here and there, whereby I'm alrdy so tired to move! I'll get frustrated, it's normal! You think it's nt tiring is it?! What's wrong of me showing my frustration. Put yrself in others position and think n feel of how one's feel. When mopping the floor, u sitting there watching tv, did anyone ask u to shift here n there? Even if we did, u also won't move. Don't be selfish and just think of yrself. You think we've gt no emotion, won't get angry, frustrated... no matter how controllable a person is, when he/she is tired, they will sure get flare up! Always thinking that we are in the wrong showing attitude or temper to u, but when u show to us, did we ever say anything? We respect u so we just keep quiet... Pls respect n understand one's feeling..